I had always wondered if there will ever come a time for me to actually step out of tanah airku for as long as I still breathe. Though I was told that I had been to Singapore before but apparently I was still a baby then - one that I had no clear, and vivid memory of. I could barely speak then, let alone walk, therefore it's almost too impossible for me to trace any available memories of me being physically there. Hence, I wouldn't count it as me having been to another country before. Alhamdulillah. I guess Allah swt heard my prayers, I was blessed with a chance to travel out of the country for the very first time in my entire existence (and without my family's presence). When this opportunity arose I honestly didn't want to lose it, although it was pretty hard to convince Ayah of allowing me to go to Singapore. You see, Ayah had always been protective and careful of me whenever I decide to go out without him but as I grow older, his protection over me is reduced...
I love writing. But I humbly admit that my writing skills, or lack thereof, is mediocre, nothing too exceptional or extraordinary. However, I feel more comfortable when I write (or in this case, type) as compared to talking. Words just seem to flow better and smoothly as I write. I get nervous when I have to speak, and my mind tend to get cluttered right when I'm in the midst of a conversation, thus, disabling me to find the right words to speak. I was worse when I was younger though (psh I meant when I was still a child. I'm not old yet !!). It was almost too impossible to hear a single word coming out my mouth, let alone forming a cohesive sentence. The words just miraculously got stuck in my throat, as if something was holding it back from making a long-awaited appearance. I was that bad . And for that, I felt small in a world where extroverts are highly favoured and socially acceptable. It wasn't a competition between the loud and the quiet anymore. The world felt...
Just 5 days left till I leave for college :( I'm so not ready for this. It's not that I'm not excited for it, I do. I've been waiting for this day to come since forever but a part of me feels like it's too soon. Of course I have rested enough but maybe I just needed a tiny bit more time to properly enjoy life before I get all busy with college. I was hoping I get to go on a vacation with my family but unfortunately, we didn't but that isn't something I should dwell on about because it's pretty understandable that my dad has been busy with his work and stuff. The only vacation that I've been to this year was when I went to Penang with a few of my best friends but that was like 10 months ago lol. Excuses, excuses, excuses. Maybe I'm just being a baby :( I honestly do not like the idea of living in a dorm that is two hours away from home and the fact that I'm gonna live there for another three years is just gruesome. Now I sound like a spoil...
cepat cepat update AMMMMYYYYYY ! ahaha
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