Ammelia Hamzah

Just 5 days left till I leave for college :( I'm so not ready for this. It's not that I'm not excited for it, I do. I've been waiting for this day to come since forever but a part of me feels like it's too soon. Of course I have rested enough but maybe I just needed a tiny bit more time to properly enjoy life before I get all busy with college. I was hoping I get to go on a vacation with my family but unfortunately, we didn't but that isn't something I should dwell on about because it's pretty understandable that my dad has been busy with his work and stuff. The only vacation that I've been to this year was when I went to Penang with a few of my best friends but that was like 10 months ago lol. Excuses, excuses, excuses. Maybe I'm just being a baby :( I honestly do not like the idea of living in a dorm that is two hours away from home and the fact that I'm gonna live there for another three years is just gruesome. Now I sound like a spoil...

Remember the masscomm interview I had about a month ago or so? Well the result was supposed to be out about a week ago but it was postponed (because of an unsaid reason) to last Monday. Only God knows how terribly nervous I was before the result day! And when the day finally came, I, who was feeling both excited and anxious, suddenly felt like bursting into tears. I honestly don't know where I mustered the confidence from but I was pretty convinced that I would get a positive result. It's like some sort of a hunch or something, idk. But what made me feel like bawling my eyes out is because I thought I was too confident and if the result turn out to be a disappointment, my heart would crush into pieces and I don't think I would ever want to feel that way. ANYWAY, once the result could be checked, firstly, I said my prayers, and then I proceeded by typing my IC number and without much hesitation I clicked "semak (check)", and here's my result... Yeap,...